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Newt Scamander ([personal profile] newtralize) wrote2019-03-08 10:26 pm

The End Of Love



We were reaching in the dark
That summer in New York
And it was so far to fall
But it didn't hurt at all
And let it wash away, wash away
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[personal profile] periit 2019-06-17 04:36 am (UTC)(link)
While never having done so before, Percival Graves is fairly sure he died. It was the only way to describe this, his state before and where he found himself now. Physically and geographically. For a man used to a degree of change and keeping on his feet, he feels quite lost here. It could be the fact he woke in a hospital no longer with his magic, or the fact he was told he was a vampire now, but he didn't like to cherrypick.

This was not New York, not by a long shot, and and he felt more alone here than he did before trapped in some stone room. How odd, that. Surrounded by people and other folk and feeling isolated despite walking amongst them. Yet, feeling better than before, his mind can't help but wonder if this is some strange, twisted trick.

He pushed the shades glasses back up the bridge of his nose and sighs. It's probably the sun. The witches had told him he wouldn't burst into flames but he certainly wouldn't enjoy it any longer, and they were quite right. Already, just walking a few blocks has him starting to sweat and feel a little woozy. Even standing in the shade, he's wondering where to go from here to regain himself. Not that he has much time to think it over.

It's a small commotion coming up behind the corner, fading into the din of the town as Percival tries to come up with his next move that won't have him fainting in the middle of the street. A thought he can't fully process before he's slammed into. They didn't crash to the ground, no, but there was certain a few shuffling steps that threatened it.

Biting the grunt down, Percival sighs as he pushes himself away from the streetlamp to get his balance back. "No, that's..." He shakes his head, straightening out his dark coat. "Quite alright." No harm no fowl, as far as he could tell, especially going off he other man's tone. "You're not hurt?" Turning his head he glances over him, eyebrows furrowing at the creature in his hands. "...What have you got there?"
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[personal profile] periit 2019-06-18 07:28 am (UTC)(link)
Percival stares right back at those glitter-seeking eyes, regardless of the darkness covering his own. If he had learned anything about beasts in his time, it was not not give them an inch. A beast... a niffler. A niffler? From home, his mind finally clicks after a few too long moments. There was no mistaking it.

Looking up from the small creature to the other man, his eyes scan him over as quickly as he can as his mind hobbles together the full realization.

He's had no interaction with the man before him, nothing to do with the Ministry beyond paperwork—and that's where he recognizes him. A thick file, flagged with more red than sunset, and a photo, clear as the deer-in-the-headlights that stared back at him now. Wait—

Why was he staring at him like he'd seen a ghost?

The following sound that fills his ears hits him like a blow. If there was any doubt he had about this man being from the same world, it was gone now. Percival feels positively green, less at the realization this was a man from his own time than it was of who he thought he was.

"Grin—" He chokes on the name, swallowing it down as he clenches his jaw to stop it from shaking. "No," The near whisper is insistent, far more confident than his body language which seems drawn in. He tries to get the words out once, failing when they get caught in his throat. He'd done it... that madman—he'd actually done it; stole his life and ruined it.

He wishes he were leaning on that pole again suddenly, his feet readjusting slightly to compensate for the imbalance hitting him. Shaking his head, he takes a sharp breath if only to jolt himself into spitting the words out: "I'm the man he stole a face from."
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[personal profile] periit 2019-06-20 06:23 am (UTC)(link)
Swallowing thickly, his head is dizzy with thought and mouth dry in thirst. But was it water Percival needed? His mind shouted at him what it wanted to hear, but his gut twisted in truth. Shaking his head as he takes a few uneven steps away, the man leans against the streetlamp they nearly rolled into. His chest is tight, the shallow breaths doing little to help with it as he tries to sort himself.

He has to pull himself together. It's unbecoming, this overreaction. Those events at home, the things that happened—the fight, his abduction, the torture—they didn't matter here. And Grindelwald wasn't here, based on the other's reaction to himself. Maybe there were others here but maybe they weren't personally effected. Maybe that was just the excuse he used to explain away why it felt he was falling apart at the seams.

Newt's voice echoes into his ears, disorientated. Had he asked him a question? Something about talking?

The shake of his head is slow. "No, I..." A gloved hand comes up to wipe at his forehead, hoping to make it look like a brush of hair and not pushing away sweat. "I need to get out of this heat." What a better excuse than for a man clothed in all black under the blazing hot sun.

In fact there's a bench not too far from where they are, shaded by a tree. When Percival looks up and sees it, without so much as a word he starts walking towards it, slow and a sort of steady he had to put all his focus into as he put one foot in front of the other. How could the open sky feel so suffocating?
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[personal profile] periit 2019-06-21 04:47 am (UTC)(link)
So focused is he in getting to that spot, the last thing he would ever expect from the other was to herd him away like some sickly thing. Which, truthfully, he is. There was only so much they could heal him here with his new affliction and his reluctance to accept it. How could he have?

To Newt's touch Percival flinches, half stumbles in an attempt to get away, the movement startled and fearful. It was different than being ran into; this was intentional, this was hands on his body and holding him in place. Even as gentle as he was it still makes Percival's skin crawl and anxiety spike, recalling a less kind man. "I don't want to impose," He replies in a hush, pushing out the words.

He isn't him, are the words that repeat in his head, and in return his gust twists further and tells that paranoid part of his mind: But what if he is? It would only make sense, the strange world, the unhelpful witches who had little information for him, who told him he was something he would never willingly become. Then again, what more harm could Grindelwald do to him...?

Such thoughts all piled together only make him feel more ill. Grindelwald could fake kindness in small bursts but he never got this close. So Percival focuses instead on the niffler as it scampers in front of them, dark eyes tracking the creature bounding just off path to sniff something before scuttling back into line. And then he realizes: "I never got your name."
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[personal profile] periit 2019-06-25 06:00 am (UTC)(link)
Some small part of him realizes he might have offended the other in some way with his physical lashing out. Only a small part and very brief at that. Truthfully, he hadn't meant to. "That's... kind of you." While the words themselves are sincere, his tone doesn't reflect it—again, unintentionally. Percival is cagey, cogs in his mind turning to think of ways out of this if he needed to go. He's stiff, shaking, and from what he can't pinpoint anymore. It's doubtfully only one thing.

Even if he had wanted to break free, there isn't an ounce of strength in him for it right now. As much as he protested being touched moments ago, while still not keen to it, Percival doesn't make move to push away. He's not sure if it's for leverage or stability but Percival ends up gripping the arm of Newt's coat as he asks him to tolerate it all. "I'm trying..." He needs all the support he can get with his gelled legs and frying mind.

Newt might not be looking to him but Percival certainly makes an effort to look at him. It's difficult, between sunglasses and dizzying vision, but he manages to take in his profile well enough. "Scamander..." The echo is just that, some grounding sound to keep his mind anchored in the moment. It doesn't hit him right away, or really at all in that manner, as much as is does slowly come to realization as he thinks more on the name. "Scamander," Percival repeats more confidently. "The magizoologist." Not young Scamander, or Theseus' brother. Newt. Newton Scamander.

A potential thorn in Percival's side, back home. And how odd—his file never read as if this were something he'd do. He laughs something bitterly faint, half nerves and half delusion. "How fitting..." Is the murmur.
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[personal profile] periit 2019-06-27 08:12 am (UTC)(link)
"I suppose that's true." What a strange concept kindness is to him now. He remembers things from home—making coffee in the morning for Seraphina when nights ran long, getting dinner for his staff when he knew they were running themselves ragged on a case—they feel more like dreams than memories now. Maybe that's why this feels so detached; he doesn't feel real. He has to tell himself he is, that this is.

Having Newt against his side helps, his hold grounding, though the sound of his laugh does more than the touch. It might have been quiet but it was light, amused; gentle. It didn't twist his gut in fear or make a chill flood his veins. He watches Newt through his shades, a mix of surprise and relief. He looks away, back o the ground and the niffler ahead of them before speaking.

"It was in your file when the Ministry sent it to us." A note from another auror, of the same last name. Spacey as he currently was, he doubted he needed to clarify just who made the annotation to the file. Newt was, after all, a one-of-a-kind in the field of beasts. Fanatic was apt, of course, but the title gave it depth, a purpose; one that reflected in his actions. It was how Percival remembered it.

He doesn't have any difficultly keeping up, luckily, aside from a rare moment or two of a knee deciding it didn't want to support his weight. Each misstep came with a small apology, one of which comes after the sight of the sunbathing zouwu--the large creature giving Percival some slight apprehension. He'd never seen a creature so large in person, and was rather relieved to have Newt between them.

Once he's sat down it takes him a few moments to move and remove all his protective clothing. The scarf is first thing peeled away from him, pulled out from under his coat and off his head. The glasses find their way on top of it beside him, then his gloves. When Newt returns Percival slowly shrugs off his coat, though he doesn't move it out from under him just yet.

His wincing goes away as the curtains are drawn, a soft sigh leaving the pallid man after he'd taken a sip of the water. It's not as refreshing as he remembered, or hoped. "Thank you."

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[personal profile] periit 2019-10-25 05:52 pm (UTC)(link)
As hungry and desperate as he felt, as hell as it was, Percival could only tell himself how preferable this was to that doorless stone chamber he was confined in. The only thing he wished he could forget was that thrum of blood he kept replaying in his mind like a record. Refusing to feed off others he tried substitutes, anything available he could. It was disgusting. It left him craving. It still left him weak.

It was all so dissatisfying, even, that he stopped eating again. Percival’s will had lasted longer this time, his belly at least full. Still, it didn’t last long. This hunger was worse. To the point he found himself stalking some poor soul in an alleyway like a villain from a dime store novel. Nothing happened—a pang struck him and had him fleeing at the realization of his actions. He was ashamed.

For a while after that he tried simply staying away from people all together. And it worked, for all his longing, just not for the right reasons. In the end his stubbornness only worked against him, because the next thing he knew the world was much, much larger. That was, once he’d crawled out of the mounts of clothing he was encased in. The wall he’d slumped against to rest his eyes for a moment, when he woke, seemed miles higher now instead of feet. So was the life of a bat, he supposed.

It took him nearly all night to learn to fly only a little bit. His hunger was crippling by then and Percvial had resorted largely to gliding the longer it took him. He doesn’t recall making his way to a home but when he lands with a small thump, he finds himself on a windowsill, crawling up it to peer inside. It was Newt’s house and the realization gives him a small burst of energy. The other had been so willing to help him before... maybe he still would be, regardless of their last parting.

Large ears pick up some movement in the house and when he sees Newt round a corner and into view, any doubt is pushed to the side. He lets out a series of chirps, quiet and high pitched, as he leans further onto the glass. He isn’t sure the other hears it, so with his claws he taps and scratches at the window in hope it’s noticeable.
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[personal profile] periit 2020-03-15 07:09 am (UTC)(link)
It's only when Newt opens the window and scoops him up that Percival thinks of the vampiric rule of being invited into a home, and if that consent needed to be verbal or not, if it was true at all or even applicable in bat form. The sudden worry passes just as quickly as he does through the window, and his thoughts are on Newt instead.

Mainly his giant, vigilant eyes looking him over and the thumb, which smells more like food than anything, petting over him. It feels... comforting, not only that but to be fussed over as he is, no matter how internally embarrassing. Percival's ribs are showing, he's shaking with hunger—a exertion of energy he doesn't have, making him move in a jittery, jumbled manner.

He chirps in answer to the question, though it might just be taken as fussing. Newt doesn't know it's him, clearly, doesn't know he's trying to communicate something to him to confirm. How does he even tell him what he needs? He certainly couldn't just bite him. Watching the other as he ponders what to do, Percival shuffles to peek over the edge of Newt's hand as he paces.

When a hunger pain twists his belly moments later he crawls back into safety and straight over to the flesh of Newt's thumb. He noses at it, giving a dabbing lick to his skin before clutching at the spot with his claws, looking up to the magizoologist. Was that clue enough? It had to be.
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[personal profile] periit 2020-04-01 04:46 am (UTC)(link)
[ The first thought Percival has when they start moving is if Newt understood. There’s a huge lack of communication to be had now, far more than before, and while he means to say his name it’s nothing more than a chirp. He hears it in his ears and tries again, the sound soft and cut off when he notices them stop and Newt rustle around the drawer.

He turns in time to see the knife and puffs at the sight, another chirp escaping him when it cuts across Newt’s skin. It looks much larger to him at his size, and there’s worry until blood begins to bead up. His stomach twists and for the second time that night, his concerns are gone when the smell of it hits his nose.

It’s the most delicious aroma, and Percival doesn’t think twice of it. Crawling over to the nick his claws curl around Newt’s finger and, without so much a noise, he starts lapping at the blood. For about a minute, off and (mostly) on, he feasts—not wasting a drop.

It’s noticeable when he’s getting full because though his belly doesn’t swell he does slow down, and when he is finished Percival turns from the cut and crawls back into Newt’s palm, and starts grooming himself.
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[personal profile] periit 2020-04-13 05:49 am (UTC)(link)
[ Another small chirp leaves him at the movement as Newt gets a bandaid on, not unlike a sound of acknowledgement at his surroundings. With his belly full he’s starting to feel tired, not to mention warm from the man’s palm, and the pat to his head earns another soft sound.

Tiny black eyes look up to the giant before them as he speaks and yes, sleep, that sounds good. Finding a good place to look over Newt’s fingers as they walk into the familiar room, Percival notices then its state. He watches closely too, the construction of the box, and surely it’s not—

It is. Percival huffs, chirping as he crawls over the fabric and maps out the area. A box bed. He was to sleep in a box. Is it an upgrade from falling asleep outside against a wall, cold and hungry? Yes, technically, but it didn’t feel it. A box. It was, however, comfortable with the pillow and blanket.

Newt said he could do as he pleased, and certainly he meant if he’d like to explore, but there’s no energy for him to do that, not tonight. Perhaps it was concerning for a nocturnal animal to curl up in a small fold in the pillow to rest at night, but he’s far too tired to keep the appearance up.
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[personal profile] periit 2020-05-08 02:26 am (UTC)(link)
[ As Percival settles into the temporary nest, he wonders how long he’ll need to stay like this before he’s feeling up to changing back. It’s no small thing Newt’s done, even if it hadn’t been much hassle on the wizard’s part. He wants to thank him as soon as he can, though he worries it’ll be longer than just another day.

When the thoughts fade, his body starts to rest, but the continuous rustling of something beyond the box make his ears twitch with each bit of noise. He huffs a small breath and crawls his way over to an edge, grasping it with his claws to peek over it.

Percival had felt small before but now he felt like an ant. Not only in comparison to Newt, but his scars. Scars surrounded by a smattering of freckles On Newt’s bare back… in his underclothes. A small, almost too high-pitched squeak leaves him at the gawking realization and he lets go of the edge, tumbling back onto the blanketed pillow with more muttering, grumbling chirps.
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[personal profile] periit 2020-05-15 03:15 am (UTC)(link)
[ The noises stop and Percival sits stock still when he hears Newt approach, his small form jumping slightly at the careful poke he’s given. Bat things. He has to do a bat thing—but what do bats do? After a long pause of staring up at Newt in his sleep shirt, Percival fears he doesn’t know how to be a convincing bat.

Then he blinks, and an idea hits him.

Repositioning himself, he settles his wings snugly against himself and tucks his head in against a fold in the bedding: it was far too bright. Yes. He was tired and the lights were still on. Problem solved.
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