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Newt Scamander ([personal profile] newtralize) wrote2019-03-08 10:26 pm

The End Of Love



We were reaching in the dark
That summer in New York
And it was so far to fall
But it didn't hurt at all
And let it wash away, wash away
periit: ("I hope that we're worth saving)

[personal profile] periit 2019-03-25 04:57 am (UTC)(link)
[ The wind blusters for a moment, rustling his cloak and more wildly at his long hair. It sets a chill in him and Percival shivers down to his toes, reminding him of being on the platform, trains rushing past. It's stoked in tradition, his father's voice echoes in his head. A fine school, his mother's follows up.

Hogwarts being a fine school was his last worry, if he were being honest. It's why he finds himself wandering now, trying to find something grounding while not feeling abandoned and trapped. Maybe he could find that someplace not over the expansive horizon. A library, or—

For all the clear attempt to not to startle, Percival still is. He knows he's not supposed to be out but he couldn't rest and he is still on grounds. It the excuse he's practiced in his head at every small noise beforehand, but actually being confronted was another thing entirely.
]

I'm sorry, I... [ The words, solid in his mind, fail to reach his mouth with his heart in his throat as he turns to face the other, wringing his hands. ] Just trying to get used to being somewhere. [ The smile, when he looks back up, is practiced, forced, but polite—meant to dispel worry away from him. ] Couldn't sleep from the... excitement.

[ Super convincing. ]

I didn't— [ Percival glances down to his hands when he digs a nail in too hard and stops twisting them. ] I don't mean to cause a fuss, [ He starts again, quieter. ] I'll go back.
periit: (gonna make it)

[personal profile] periit 2019-03-27 05:05 am (UTC)(link)
[ For as much as he’s aware, for as shaky as he might have been trying to throw this professor off the trail, he thinks it works. Mostly. He was clearly the transfer student, illustrated if only by his accent, flat and even for someone his age.

Percival stiffens internally at the smile, unsure what it means with against everything else. Until he clarifies and it really only gives him more questions than anything. Almost none of the teachers at Ilvermorny would have ever been so forgiving about finding a first time student wandering by themselves let alone offer them tea.
]

No, that— [ Finally, at the half ultimatum, Percival’s feet start, moving his towards the hall and kind professor. He didn’t want to go back to the dormitory yet. ] Would help, I think. I’m not that tired. [ He was beyond it, exhausted: mentally and physically. And it shows in his step, strides lazy with occasional heel scrapes against the stone, in the slight slump of his shoulders and slow blinks. All the same, he believes he isn't. ]

It's... preoccupied, more, I think. [ A pause of his own, fixing his Ilvermorny scarf before pulling the rest of his hair out from under it. ] Unless that makes it a lot.
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[personal profile] periit 2019-03-29 06:59 am (UTC)(link)
[ Ah, maybe he hadn't gotten away with it. It always worked so well back home. And why was it an upsetting thought to have now? He doesn't think about the alternative, that he was convincing enough that no one cared to correct him. All things considered, being called out like that was quite a mild reaction to having been fibbed at.

Shaking the thought from his mind, Percival turns back to the other, trying to fix the little things he's mentioned, as if it were criticism to fix. He picks up his feet, carries his shoulders better. At least a little. To even keep it up more than a dozen or so feet drains more of his energy.
]

Bullied, [ The exhale comes out as a weak laugh. Clearly something he isn't concerned with. But... ] Being Slytherin... is that bad? [ The question is soft, genuine: not upset, as he briefly glances up to him. ] I couldn't find much on Hogwarts before arriving. Just basics. The establishment, the founders. Nothing about culture or the houses or history. [ Maybe he was exhausted if that was that he focused more on that his own tiredness. ]

I suppose it d— [ But then the professor opens the door and Percival sees some beasts he hasn't before skitter off. For all his tiredness it gives him a boost, and he steps in quickly, heading for the hall the calves trotted down. He stands a respectable distance before it, peering down, hoping to catch another sight. ] What were those? I've never—You keep them here? [ There's barely a pause before he adds: ] Are they friendly?

[ He hasn't even so much as batted an eye at the aforementioned clutter. ]
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[personal profile] periit 2019-04-04 08:24 am (UTC)(link)
[ The snort catches his attention, has him focusing in more than before. The information is useful, intriguing even, but it almost leaves him with more questions than not. Too many questions to really bother voicing them all. ] Does old blood from another continent count? [ He has a sneaking suspicion it wouldn't. ]

That's alright, I appreciate the information you did give. [ It was good to learn some things no one was really able to tell him before. It was... comforting, even for all his lingering worry. The presence of creatures, though, provide a much better distraction from it.

While he takes the tea and saucer, Percival was quick to look back down the hall, the faint noises pulling his attention further.
] Yes, [ Is the hasty reply. ] I would like that very much. [ At the idea of seeing the calves and whatever else there might be he's noticeably lighter; excited.

Maybe the offer was a bad idea. He doesn't feel or look as tired as they did walking here.
]
periit: (ᴍᴏᴅᴇʀɴɪᴛʏ ʜᴀs ғᴀɪʟᴇᴅ ᴜs)

[personal profile] periit 2019-04-19 06:58 am (UTC)(link)
[ The mixed basket of an answer seems to leave Percival with more questions than anything, going off his confused expression. It sounded less than optimal and the possibility seemed more exhausting than anything. Another something to have to wait out, he supposed. Or maybe his face is because of the tea.

It isn't bad, though it's not something he's used to. He took polite sips until Newt's face lit up, distracting the motion, and then he's mirroring the motion to keep up with him. Percival has some trouble being so quick with the hot drink and it takes him a few extra gulps to get it down, but he does in time to get to the next room.

Lucky for Newt his cups flew back on their own when go of, because it slips the young wizard's mind entirely.

Standing on the edge looking over all the floors and creatures he can see from there, Percival looks like he just woke up on Christmas morning. He rushes down the stairs all the same, eager and suddenly energetic to see them all up close.
] Where do you find them? [ He asks unable to help the laugh that shapes it. ] I didn't see any coming here... [ None that weren't in cages, that is.

So busy is he looking in awe at all the creatures buzzing about, he doesn't notice the leucrotta behind him, tucked under the stairs, leaning down to sniff at Percival's dark and shiny hair. The hot breath earns a yelp from the teen when he turns around to see the giant creature in his face, which brings about a mimic from the beast, opening its wide mouth and calmly echoing the sound with no regard to their closeness.

Percival stumbles back a couple feet, rubbing his ears as he winkles his brow at the leucrotta. Though there's some ringing in his head he looks for Newt and speaks louder than he usually does:
] Are they all so loud?
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[personal profile] periit 2019-04-22 06:49 am (UTC)(link)
You wrote it? [ The question comes out as a surprise, and not because he didn't hear him properly. ] You're the Newt Scamander? [ The surprise that was in his voice works its way to his face and Percival can't help looking... impressed. ] They talk about your book a lot back home—in America, [ He trails, and it's not clear if it's homesickness or the controversial existence of his book. ] I didn't know you rescued them...

[ Which made it somewhat painfully obvious it was the latter—and that they still weren't using the book to teach across the ocean just yet.

Ears still ringing from that shout into his face, Percival shakes his head, shooting another squint at Dale who merely kindly looks on and huffs out his nose at him. To see he's skeptical is obvious, but it's not an unwillingness to forgive. It's a bit of an embarrassed glance to Newt as he takes the bucket and follows after him, taking in every bit of information he gets.
]

My parents transferred to the Ministry. An intercontinental branch. [ He pauses in thought, brow knitting together ] How did you end up teaching then, if you were in the Ministry before? Wasn't it a good job?

[ With every step, while he’s still excited to be here and see all the creatures, exhaustion creeps up his spine the more he exerts himself. When they get to the mooncalves his blinks are slow again despite the awe at the way the professor is all but encircled. When he motions him to join, he doesn’t need to be told twice.

A few of the calves break off from the others and trot up to Percival, who's still a little stiff, even as they headbutt at him in a plea for attention.
] Don't worry, [ His chuckle is soft. ] I don't break the rules. [ At the realization he already did his eyes widen and a small flush finds his cheeks, and he busies himself with petting a mooncalf or two. ] Usually.

[ He was better at bending them anyway. ]

Is that how you got through school? Taking care of your creatures?
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[personal profile] periit 2019-04-23 05:47 am (UTC)(link)
[ Percival doesn't say it but he feels it's a little more understandable question for him to ask. The book was all but banned, heavily frowned upon aside from speaking gossip. ] I think you look fitting for the book, [ It comes out instead. ] I haven't read it myself but by the sounds if it, I imagined you... older. Mature. [ Graying, even, but he wasn't so rude to say it outright. But there's a small chortle at the idea of there being more of him. Maybe it wouldn't be such a bad idea, with this work being so interesting and important.

The passion in which Newt speaks of his work is... something he hasn't really seen before in an adult. At least not something he's seen so raw. To see it is inspiring, even in his tiredness. How it chases away the sudden gray gloom of his home life, the Ministry, is intriguing. Following his family's footsteps hadn't seemed so boring and bleak before this.
]

So, your book saved you, really. [ From the monotony of the Ministry and it's people. He didn't think the professor was that different at all. Not to incur such negative attention from everyone else. Not sure how to address it, the words jumbled in his head and caught in this throat, he keeps to something easier. Something interesting. ] Is it something you'd do again? Go out adventuring for creatures?

[ His heart trips and thuds heavy in his chest at the sound of Newt laughing, at the way his smile brightens the enclosure around them. He quickly looks away, feeling his eyes are as wide as the calf before him. It seems to bounce on its front feet and Percival tips his head down to carefully bump his forehead between the calf’s eyes, his hands gently fluffing the fur behind its ears. It's a good distraction but not good enough.

One other seems to note his distress and huffs at him to get his attention, nudging his arm with it's head so it can weasel in and cuddle at him. More follow suit and unlike Newt his fall to the ground is less graceful, but guided by mooncalves that are happy to pile on him.
] I see they're quick to trust, [ Percival's head shakes, a small titter falling from him. ]

My family doesn't take well to misbehavior. [ Not that they were around much more than to uproot him. ] I... don't plan on breaking more rules. [ An almost fond smile starts to creep across his mouth as he settles against the mooncalves, looking up at the starry enclosure. ] At least not alone. We really only ever bent them. Found loopholes. [ But that was back in America—who knows how bold he'll be here. ]

Do you miss the ones you have to release back? [ It's less a cover-up for his previous admission than it is a string of tired thoughts. ] Are there a lot that end up staying with you? You said "usually don't intend". [ There it was; a loophole. Not intent but eventuality. ]
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[personal profile] periit 2019-04-25 09:14 am (UTC)(link)
I will, [ Is his laugh. ] I doubt I'll be able to put it down. [ He was always good at reading, even things he thought boring because he knew they had value in some way or another. And if Newt's book were anything like learning what he did with the round they just made, it wasn't going to be boring at all. In fact he was quite excited for it, shortcuts be damned.

But that he didn't offend the other at his perception of what he looked like, Percival is relieved, his accompanying laughter perhaps a little telling. He certainly hadn't mentioned it to be rude and he's glad Newt didn't take it as such.
] I could see a beard, [ He manages to get out in another chuckle. ] Maybe not the rest.

[ While Newt speaks of the Ministry and all the things that came with it, the mooncalves saw it fit to start fitting around him like a puzzle, twisting necks and tucking bodies good and snug around him. One even saw it fit to nuzzle it's head alongside Percival's. ] It sounds like it was more for the better then, even if there was some bad. [ The giggle isn't for the topic at at hand but the tickling that comes with being cuddled. He wants to say it feels almost like being trapped, but their fur is warming and for all their snugness it isn't restricting. They almost feel like a cloud; far more comforting than his bunk had been.

He's definitely going to have a hard time getting out of them when it finally comes around to him needing to leave.
]

You've seen Thunderbirds? In person? [ He lolls his head against the calf smushed against his face, trying to get a better look at Newt. Of course he knows what they are, but, ] I've only seen them in drawings. Are they as wonderful as people describe them? [ He's sure they're in Newt's book, but something tells him that isn't quite an experience you can fit in a book.

And to see how Newt still cares for all his creatures, even the ones who've gone, give his heart another little trip over itself. This is hardly fair, he can't look away or hide his face all wrapped up like this. Well, he is a little hidden, just his head and an arm sticking out through all the tangle he finds himself in.
] Which ones have you had stay with you?
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[personal profile] periit 2019-07-09 07:35 am (UTC)(link)
[ It's quite a lot of information to take in, all he's discussing with the professor. Percival doesn't mind, after all it's a welcome distraction and it makes him feel more relaxed. He isn't in his own head, overanalyzing or fretting about things he couldn't control.

The mooncalves, absolutely surrounding him do well to help, like a living blanket. They're even humming, which is only adding to it. His blinks are long, slow and sometimes Percival snaps his eyes open in realization he's closed them too long. The tea, a warm an comforting thing in its own right, has undoubtedly begun to work it's magic as well.

He smiles tiredly, lopsidedly, at the mention of an Egyptian adventure and soaring Thunderbirds. He's thought of following in his parents footsteps before but seeing the sincerity on Newt's face gives him the passing idealization this is something he could see himself doing one day—for the first time in his young years.
]

I'd like to see them, [ Comes Percival's mutter, sleepy and half distorted by the mooncalf tucked against his head. He takes a slow, deep breath, causing the pile of creatures to gently shift. ] Maybe not the Swooping Evil... Unless it's nice? [ His face scrunches in consideration of something being called evil but being good. Surely it was if Newt kept it here. Still, it doesn't stop the drowsy string of: ] Doesn't it eat brains?
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[personal profile] periit 2019-07-10 04:29 am (UTC)(link)
[ Despite all his easing relaxation, to hear he professor pipe up so suddenly and insistently, Percival startles in the mess of mooncalves; a spike of anxiety hitting him and coursing through his lethargic limbs. An odd feeling, shaking from nerves and exhaustion, but he does well to hide it in his face, aside a touch
from his eyes.
]

No, I didn’t— [ Percival’s mousy trail dies off quickly. He hadn’t meant for it to seem like he was judging the creature based on his diet, but it seemed silly now to try and correct that he was worried about the name having “evil” in it, especially when the wizard who owned it was so accomplished and knowledgeable. ] Lilac is a wonderful name, [ He adds softly, genuinely.

The calmer tone settles him back down, though the thudding of his heart takes some time to ease back down. The calf nestled beside him feels it and begins a quiet song that a few others join in on, helping him ease further. He returns Newt’s smile gingerly.
] She sounds very nice. I apologize, I didn’t mean to assume. [ The pause lasts only as long as the blink he takes. ] I’d like to meet her too.
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[personal profile] periit 2019-09-26 04:52 am (UTC)(link)
[ The faux alertness fades from Percival’s limbs, at least for a short time. He can’t help the chuckle as some of the moon calves that left the professor scuttle over to him and join the pile, content to still be surrounded by their comfort. For the time being.

For all his brave talk about seeing the swooping evil, that courage dims some at the actual sight of it. Her flight, of course, is breathtaking, but the heavy thud of her landing leaves him facing a face he’d only heard about, and he freezes.

A few of the doe-eyed beasts dart off when Lilac settles on him, either startled from the other creature or the surprise that rolls through the young wizard, but not enough to free him. Percival swallows thickly, not daring to look away from her.
]

She’s—very pretty. [ Is his breathing heavier? He doesn’t mean it to be, it was just all rather new. ] And, ah. Larger, than... I expected. [ Did she just lick her teeth or was that his delirium? ]
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[personal profile] periit 2019-10-22 05:46 am (UTC)(link)
[ Ah, well that made sense why Lilac seemed to come out of nowhere. ] In your sleeve? Always? [ His tired mind has an issue picking out the concise words to use. ] Is—how? She doesn’t get... [ Squished? Obviously not. ] Cramped?

[ With her off his chest Percival breathes a little easier, body relaxing again against the mooncalves as he watches Lilac rustle through the professor’s hair, and he hides the grin at the silly sight. ]

Oh good, [ Is his cautiously nervous laugh. ] I’m glad. I enjoy keeping my mind. [ A small joke back. He wants to ask where he even gets food for her, now that he’s thinking about it, but stops himself with all the other stupid questions weighing on him. So another one hits him. ]

Do... mooncalves usually pile up like this? [ Not that he was complaining. Percival blinks slowly, exhaling the same. Did he already ask that? He feels like he did. They're just so comfortable. ]

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